If I had the time...

I have a drawer designated to projects that I really truly want to get done. Filling in my kids baby books properly, putting 200 photos of my daughters first few weeks into an album, sorting through about 1500 photos from the last year that need to be printed or made into a photo book (despite the cost I'm thinking that a photo book would be a great way to house a couple hundred pics nicely!), take photos of all the beautiful paintings and drawings my son has made me over the last 5 years and put it into a photo book... I'd like to get my creative space sorted properly... put hooks and pictures up on the walls in every room of the house to make it more homely... but since becoming a WAHM it seems that my priority when I have 'me time' is to catch up on correspondance, come up with new products, and work on orders. I wonder what I could really get done if there were an 8th day to the week, solely just for me......

Laaaaaaaazy

What a lazy blogger I've been lately!!! It's been one thing or another for the last 4 months, honestly. I'm sooooo sick of having excuses for not keeping up with orders, or my housework... but it's been a crappy illness filled winter, and I've just entered my second trimester with lil Jelly Bean, my 3rd babe. Fortunately it has been a morning sickness free pregnancy, but in exchange for that I was hit with the most unbearable lethargy. Like, I'm an incurable night owl, can't help myself ;) but guaranteed for about 8 weeks I'd be in bed by 7.30 at the latest, as soon as I got my daughter settled in bed I'd be off there myself. The great thing now is I've got SO MUCH ENERGY!!! God bless the second trimester! Now I'm just itching to get stuck into my orders and my sewing which has been teasing me with it's beautiful fabrics just begging to be made into something super cute... also if you haven't already, go on over to my new page Little Treasures (on facebook) as I'm expanding my business and need a new page for it (booooooooooo to facebook for not allowing us to change the names of our pages!) and I will be closing down my Treasure Tags page shortly.

Love to you all - I have the next blog subject all lined up ready to go, just need some time to do it xxx

Pondering...

So I don't have a HUGE amount of confidence in myself. I mean, I don't do too badly, but I'm not the most confident person. So every time I get to almost finish all the orders that have been waiting I think ''Surely that's it right? My work can't be good enough, or popular enough to have more people wanting them, surely?'' And every time, without fail, when I get to the end of my wait list, I find another little email from another bereaved mum, requesting something beautiful to honor their baby, or their friend's baby.

While I'm excited to see that yes, people do love what I do, it devastates me to know that there is another mum without her beloved babe, another mum (or dad) experiencing the most devastating grief imagineable.

So now I think, maybe it's not so much that I'm doubting the beauty of my work, but more that I'm desperately hoping that surely there can't be another sad story out there... another parent that can't hold their baby in their arms each day.

Though logic knows that this will NEVER end. That there will always be the presence of this most torturous grief.

In memory of my 3 girls lost in the first 12 weeks of pregnancy.
(Photo by Carly Dudley)

New Start

Soooooooo here's my new blog :) Ain't it pretty?!

 As someone who is naturally the creative sort, I HAVE to have things around me which are beautiful and inspiring. I can't work or create if I'm surrounded in clutter and chaos - I simply cannot create if my surroundings have a negative or crowded energy about them.

It's the simple things that work the best - a little candle quietly burning away on my desk, some flowers from the garden hanging over a basket. A simple jar with bits and pieces of pretty things... all these work together to create a harmonious environment for me to exist in.

I love these roses :) My son suggested to his Daddy that they should pick them out of Nanny and Poppy's garden the other day when they were visiting. They have the most amazing rose garden, and the smell coming from these flowers while I work is just divine :) A very special little addition to my space.

A while ago Carly blogged about a Memory Board (or Inspiration or Dream Board - whichever you prefer). She and a couple of other girls had been at my place that morning and Carls had seen the canvas leaning against my wall with a collection of pretty (but very basic) things on it. I think at that stage I had a few butterflies, couple of photos, a piece of torn fabric... it was only a couple of days old and was rather basic. Since then, it has grown so much :) It now includes some sweet things my 4 year old made at school for me for mothers day, a Tag that I'd made, a Tag that my son had decorated, cards which customers had written to me. It's beautiful and much more varied than I anticipated it would be. I love it :) I often peg a fresh flower to it as well, and take it down when it's wilted. Having flowers and greenery and life around has a wonderful effect on the soul.

My Inspiration Board

Small butterfly Tag (comes in an organza bag with 5 butterflies for $3.00)

Wishing you all a beautiful peaceful day xxx

Evening at the beach

So I haven't blogged in a while, I've had some family stuff going on so have been preoccupied. Feeling better now though and thought I'd share a little from last night.

I took my sweet little dude up to the beach where Carly writes the children's names. He and I don't get a lot of time alone together anymore since having my girl 10 months ago. It was so beautiful up there, pretty chilly but Jordan didn't seem to notice - he had a blast jumping through the the water that pooled on the shore :)

Here's a selection of photos that I took from last night of my gorgeous boy and that amazing beach :)
xx

Pray

Saying a prayer for my husband, he was admitted to hospital earlier with a migraine but he has many health issues and it could be an indicator that something else is going on. Waiting on blood results.

Family

I just wanted to share a couple of family pics of my wonderful husband and beautiful children. Despite my little lost butterflies, I am so blessed to hold two in my arms every day :) I pray for the same blessings for any of you who are waiting to hold yours in your arms one day. Sending love and peace to you all tonight xxx

Snugs with Mama <3

Lucy at 11 weeks with her Dad-dad

Speaks for itself really doesn't it :)

Love this pic

Family photo, Jordan was almost 4, and Lucy was just weeks away from joining our family :)

Very pregnant :) about 36 weeks with Lucy

My beautiful boy, my first born - Jordan Max - almost 5 years old now :)

My husband and darling daughter at 9 months

Cheeky miss ;) covered in chocolate, having just been caught knocking over a large clock :P

Pic by Carly Dudley - Lucy at 9 weeks :)

Little Lucy Goosie at 9 weeks, taken by Carly

Love this one :)